If you fret over things

There are things I wish I could tell my seventeen or fifteen year old self. I have always almost hated the idea of uncertainty. I hate it when I don’t know what’s going to happen next. I hate it when I don’t have the faintest idea of what is coming my way. This explains why I naturally gravitate towards clarity of mind. But there is this realization that gradually dawned upon me. Uncertainty is the closest thing to life. If I were asked to explain life in one word, I would definitely say uncertainty. So maybe I have hated the idea of life all along? I think I was wrong in my approach.

Of course, nobody is perfect and that’s the way I like it. But this whole fretting over everything has costed me more than I would have agreed to. I messed up many important exams, I killed my time, I tortured my brain and what not. And when I look back, it wasn’t even worth it! I wasn’t living.

How does it feel to know that about a quarter of your life has passed without you getting even close to living? Well I feel cheated. I wish somebody had told me that fretting was not worth the pain. Wait a minute. People did try telling me that. But I did what I did. That’s what most of us do. We ultimately do what we feel is right. And there is nothing wrong with that. Having your own voice is a gift, almost like a north star inside you guiding you throughout.

How about telling your north star to stop bothering you to react on everything? How about reprogramming your north star to focus on what is in your control?

I think, no matter what, things happen. Sometimes, as you expected them to be but most of the times, they turn out not as you imagined. But where’s the sense in killing your limited time on fretting over what you cannot control? I mean seriously, I have had enough of this! I don’t know about you but I feel cheated.

So, I am going to reprogram my north star to stop wasting my time on reacting. It’s okay to feel things. But fretting over them is not okay. No matter what, there is always going to be a situation where I am supposed to take action. I am hoping that I can instead devote my time in thinking of what I can do best given any situation. After I am done, I am not going to fret over it. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life not living in the moment. I have had enough of it!

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